Yesterday was my last official day at The Connection and I feel strangely mournful. A couple months ago, I was counting the days 'til I could kiss that place goodbye! Not that I didn't love my job, because I loved my job. But, the apathetic writing staff, the endless meetings, the tedious copy editing and the exhausting layout sessions were starting to get to me. And yet, I already miss it.
I feel scared and nervous to start all over at OSU, a new school and a new town where I don't know anyone. I've never been one to make friends very easily and I know that I will probably spend the first month of the next semester living as a social pariah, sitting in my dorm room and re-reading my Harry Potter books to pass the time. Erica says that people probably misconstrue my shyness as being snobby. I know she is right and I hate that I don't know how to be extroverted. I've never been a very talkative person and when I meet a new person, I never know what to say. I rack my brain trying to think of something, anything, to say and always come up blank. Why is it that I always know what to write but never know what to say...?
From Erica:
ReplyDeleteIt's okay to be scared! But I know you will do fine, my dear :)
I am so proud of you and I know you will love Stillwater! I wish more than anything that we could attend the same school. But, I am sure that we will still get together and do lunch!